This has become a routine affair now... sleepless nights, wet eyelids... filled with rambled thoughts.. excruciating pain inhaled with every breath that i take.. a turmoil inside my soul..
trying really hard each day to accept the truth.. to accept my fate.. to be happy and to feel content -- for you & for me -- but this heart continues to drive me to insanity.. confusion has induced me to make allies with contemptible thoughts.. but no one can ever understand why i love you still.. i understand its so wrong now.. but i find no other way but to keep loving you...being filled with irresistible emotions..
fate had it that we met.. Two complete strangers, out of nowhere. Yet, even if we were always afar, but i always could feel an inexpressible joy of entirety with you, when you used to be on the other side... bcoz ours has always been a special relationship built affectionately, nurtured with care and luv.. a bond so strong that even if i sometimes try hard to remain silent, or to go away from u, I am finding it so impossible... I have got addicted to you.. i just couldn't know when tides of love just engulped me into its possession & eyes and heart got filled with dreams..
but fate had it that i wasn't deemed worthy enough for you.. so my dreams were to get crushed
it was like a howling wind came & destroyed my sand castle the moment i completed it!!
I never had the maturity to handle tougher situations... and never have i been able to go along by what mind says...rather i have always followed my heart devotedly... and this fragile faltering heart now makes me do things i am confused about.. not knowing where will it take me to..
i realise that God didn't grant me you because i wasn't worthy for you.. i dont know what's kept in store for me in future but i surely know that i can never get another you... and so can never love anyone again, as much as i love you...
it's only in dreams now that i can keep you before my eyes, all day long looking at you, into your eyes and living every single moment like a lifetime of bliss..
it's only in dreams now that i find solace, imagining your smile on any of my silly jokes or of our happy times spent and memories made..
it's only in dreams now that i find utter happiness when i play pranks on you and getting your mock admonishes, i so love when you act like getting angry on me..
it's only in dreams now that i can keep on talking with you all day long, about anything and every little thing without bothering about the time..
it's only in dreams that i can remain drowned in your love all day long, without any opposition..
Why then sleep continues to give my eyes a miss? Can't fate now have some mercy as to allow me to dream?
trying really hard each day to accept the truth.. to accept my fate.. to be happy and to feel content -- for you & for me -- but this heart continues to drive me to insanity.. confusion has induced me to make allies with contemptible thoughts.. but no one can ever understand why i love you still.. i understand its so wrong now.. but i find no other way but to keep loving you...being filled with irresistible emotions..
fate had it that we met.. Two complete strangers, out of nowhere. Yet, even if we were always afar, but i always could feel an inexpressible joy of entirety with you, when you used to be on the other side... bcoz ours has always been a special relationship built affectionately, nurtured with care and luv.. a bond so strong that even if i sometimes try hard to remain silent, or to go away from u, I am finding it so impossible... I have got addicted to you.. i just couldn't know when tides of love just engulped me into its possession & eyes and heart got filled with dreams..
but fate had it that i wasn't deemed worthy enough for you.. so my dreams were to get crushed
it was like a howling wind came & destroyed my sand castle the moment i completed it!!
I never had the maturity to handle tougher situations... and never have i been able to go along by what mind says...rather i have always followed my heart devotedly... and this fragile faltering heart now makes me do things i am confused about.. not knowing where will it take me to..
i realise that God didn't grant me you because i wasn't worthy for you.. i dont know what's kept in store for me in future but i surely know that i can never get another you... and so can never love anyone again, as much as i love you...
it's only in dreams now that i can keep you before my eyes, all day long looking at you, into your eyes and living every single moment like a lifetime of bliss..
it's only in dreams now that i find solace, imagining your smile on any of my silly jokes or of our happy times spent and memories made..
it's only in dreams now that i find utter happiness when i play pranks on you and getting your mock admonishes, i so love when you act like getting angry on me..
it's only in dreams now that i can keep on talking with you all day long, about anything and every little thing without bothering about the time..
it's only in dreams that i can remain drowned in your love all day long, without any opposition..
Why then sleep continues to give my eyes a miss? Can't fate now have some mercy as to allow me to dream?
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