This is an obsession... it's blissful, painful and chaotic - all at the same time... it's killing me, each time, every moment, each day... and yet i am repeating it, yet I am reagy to embrace this pain... like an unending loop, it's continuing.
While I sit in this dark, talking to these walls, with sealed lips and sleep-dried, blurred eyes heavy with water.. mindlessly typing words that i continuously fail to bury inside... whatever comes out from within, your thoughts and memories give me company.
I am fed up with these burning eyes and yet I'm helpless...
in each one of my silences, I'm thinking about you ... every night, I'm calling out your name..
i shouldn't be, i know... i have no right over you now..i never had any... but i fail each time to this unrelenting heart's call... It has now become my obsession...
I can't stop thinking about you.. I can't stop dreaming about you... I can't stop searching you around...
i know you are nowhere here... and yet I am stretching out my hands, searching for you in the dark....
i simply don't know how to stop...
This is wrong.... It's a forbidden love, a mirage i am trying to run after ... it's a dead end ..
and the only person who would get hurt is me... yet I'm blinded by this obsession