overwhelming emotions ... feelings that continue to eat me up from within... burning furiously beneath the chambers of this yearning heart.. uncontrollable heart..continuing to flutter when an image of you comes up before my eyes, as i try to sleep, closing my eyes... and the rest of the night, I am filled with thoughts of you.. longing for the moments we had spent.. your face pounds in my head, keeps pulsating through my body...i feel so damn psychotic ..i know this is so wrong... but still am unable to accept the reality... you are now someone else's...
I wait for my pain to burst out.. I just want it to burst out and somehow feel empty... I am fed up with this masqueraded smile..
It seems like everything i do and every song that i hear, brings to my mind these thoughts of you ..it's killing me.. i am not strong enough for all these.. the edge is crumbling by fractions.. I am failing continually to bottle up these tides of emotions.. I am feeling choked up.. i had never loved anyone this much ever.. nor will ever be able to... I just wanna go numb, as to never again to feel you! i dont want to put you in a disturbed state but i continue to love you.. like it's beyond my control to stop..